Lot 48: August 2017

August 28, 2017

its a doxey thing

hello hello! we just got back from family vacation! aka family "staycation" meaning we all went home to our house for a week.  i didn't go the full week, i went thursday - sunday because mama's got to work.  it was really hard because taran was in park city for his company's annual conference so we were apart for four days which is a long time for us! i know, you want to get out the world's tiniest violin, but that is a long time for us and it was really, really hard.  but we did it! taran joined me on friday. 

the best part of the trip was that i got to finally meet my newest nephew moses! he was just shy of 3 months old and i fell so hard crazy in love with him.  he is the smiliest, sweetest, most talkative baby out there and i am so, so in love with him.

he is a very bad sleeper and didn't take a very long nap and was getting fussy so i rocked him and sang "edelweiss" and managed to get him to sleep.  we were heading out to the lake and while my sister was putting her other 3 kids in the car i put a blanket over him and he just slept on me for about 15 minutes and it was absolute heaven.  then i managed to transfer him to his carseat without waking him up!  success!

guys! isn't he so fat and chunky and cute? i love him so, so much!

all 10 of my nicephews love playing with each other and get so excited when we all get together.  they have so much fun.  my mom made these shirts that say "cousins make the best friends" and we did a photoshoot with all of them together and it was adorable.  i'm so glad they are all friends and close in age.  

later that day, we went to the lake.  in the summertime in my family, thats what we do, we go to the lake.  we got a boat when i was 14 and man have we worn and torn the crap out of that thing! since there were so many of us and not all of us could fit on the boat, we took turns and set up a spot on the beach.  it was a great day.  we supervised the kids as they played with shovels and buckets in the sand and continuously applied sunscreen on them, then switch! we did it all over again with another batch of niecephews. 

my niece vienna and i chilling on the beach

me riding the tube with my sweet nephew oliver and my niece avery.  they did not want to go outside the wake and wanted to go slow.  they are four days apart in age and are 5.  they are so adorable.  oliver's little hands as he held on so tightly to the handles with his adorable cheeks that i just wanted to cover in kisses.  avery is usually so fierce and brave to the point we are all afraid for her but she really really didn't want to go fast and and she really really didn't want to go outside the wake.  tubing can be scary for my babies!  

i went on the tube with my bigger boys as well, lincoln and eli, and they wanted to go outside the wake and go fast and i was so impressed.  like i said, i have been going to the lake since i was 14, so i have been tubing for 13 years and have it down to a science.  i got to show them how to lean the opposite way when going over a wake and it was really fun but i did not want them to fall off.  i held onto them real tight!

that night we had a surprise baby shower for my sister rachelle.  it is her first boy! i'm so glad we did it for her and were able to make her feel special.  it was small, just my sisters and i, my mom, and two family friends.  i think once moms are on their second child, its easy for their loved ones to slip up and forget to treat the unborn baby as special as they would the first.  but we need to! each child is just as special and each pregnancy is just as special.  i was so glad we were able to get some things for the baby and celebrate baby james! 

the next day taran finally arrived! my family went to pine valley to hike, a little place north of saint george where we used to have a cabin.  taran was on his way down from park city, and i wasn't able to go or else i would miss his arrival.  nonetheless, my babies are cute so i must include pictures.
my brother in law carrying 2/3 of his children.  haha. 

must pack suckers on hikes to keep children happy!

this was our cabin when i was growing up! we would go there all the time and i have such good memories there.  we had our dog max when we had the cabin and it was his absolute favorite place.  behind the cabin was a hill that he would run down with a stream at the bottom.  no matter if it was summer or winter and the water was below freezing, he would swim in it and bark at all the fish and try to catch them.  he would roll around and play in the snow.  when we hiked, he would always walk ahead of us to make sure everything was alright for us.  he always looked out for us.  the cabin was his kingdom.  there was a tiny little attic in the cabin that i thought was so cool that i would always sleep in with my sister whenever we stayed.  we would eat dinner late and stay up talking at the fireplace.  we would play games as a family and it was a rare occasion that my oldest sisters weren't fighting, a very rare time then, haha. i loved that cabin! 

my babies "helping" my mom make cupcakes that night. 

my parents made us shirts too! i love they always do this.  they did this four years ago at our last staycation!

the next day we went to the lake again!

the kids are so cute on the tube!

my dad being funny with his grandkids. 

the beach!

my niece wanted a picture of us girls.  so cute.

look how awesome taran is on the tube!

i have a season pass to universal studio, and the day before i left for the trip, i went there with a friend.  we were in honeydukes and i thought it would be fun if i had the kids try bertie botts every flavored beans.  at first they were only asking for the good flavors.  but then they got into it and got brave tasting the bad flavors!

lincoln was so cute when he did it.  we gave him sausage and he was completely fine with it.  he held up his finger, chewed, then nonchalantly said "it tastes like meat."

of course we had to take pictures in our shirts!

my neck look so weird in these pictures.  the photographer was on practically on the ground to be at level with the kids to get their attention, so i was trying to look down without looking like i had multiple chins.  it was awkward.

it was a great week.  happy monday everyone!

August 2, 2017

why ugly Betty is my favorite show

yesterday was heavy, so lets brighten it up.  i love this blog.  this is the only place where i am able to write and i don't have to think about character or plot or dialogue and i can't just write.  if i haven't written something by the end of the day i get a little crazy.  like a crack addict who doesn't get their fix.  i believe the term is jonesing?  this blog is my outlet to get my writing fix without banging my head against a wall and think thoughts such as "you have no talent!"  "you will never get hired as a writer!" "what story am i telling!?" "i don't know how to get this character from point A to B!"

i don't think anybody knows this about me, but ugly betty is my favorite tv show.   maybe not my favorite favorite (hi gilimore girls) but it is up there!

here's betty.
 the show is not particularly well written, it isn't a tv classic or a cult classic or anything, but i love it for so many reasons.

and if you haven't seen it this is my reaction.

and if you have seen it, then betty and i give you the thumbs up!

it has been a decade since it aired.  for those of you who don't know the premise: a latina girl who is on the "bigger side" (so stupid, betty you're beautiful! betty la bonita no betty la fea!) with glasses and braces gets a job mode, a fashion magazine, to the editor in chief.  she doesn't have an interest in fashion but wants to be a writer.

this is the editor in chief, daniel meade.  he's a goof and we all love him.

the creative director of the magazine and villain of the show, wilhelmenia slater.  the below entrance when she walks into mode is my favorite little bit of the entire series.  fierce. rawr. 

but she scary

what i love about this show and what made this show capture my heart are a few things and they are mostly all about betty,

1. she is so perky, kind, smart, positive, and brave.  i want to be her when i grow up.  i wouldn't have survived a day at mode, but she survives four years!

2. no matter how many blunders she does along the way, including embarassing moments, being too trusting, getting screwed over, getting constantly mocked, running into walls and people, she keeps moving forward.

3. her character growth is inspiring! look at her! you would have to see the show, but no matter how many times people tell her "you have to be cutthroat  to make it in this business!" she never listens or gives in and always takes the high road.  she is always a good person but as the show goes on, finds ways to change the people around her for the better.

4. marc and amanda.  marc is wilhelmenia's assistant and amanda is the receptionist.  they are terrible people.  amanda is so out of touch with reality.  they mock betty mercilessly but they end up becoming her closest friends.  because thats what happens when youre around betty.  you can't help but love her.  they are the funniest people in the show.  and i love them.

i still watch this show and i just keep watching it over and over and over again.  i bonded with my best friend amy over it, and if i didn't love this show, what would we have bonded over and become friends over? what, i say?  i have such fond memories from college of coming home after a long shift waitressing, putting in a batch of muffins, taking a shower and then eating a bowl of soup, some muffins and watching ugly betty.  it was my favorite way to unwind from the day.


August 1, 2017

hello, old friend.

i'm coming to you as i pull myself out of a hole i buried myself in consisting of exquisite tv, writing education and fear.  

as taran and i were driving to the orange county fair last weekend and were stuck on the freeway for two and a half hours, i looked at all the cars and wondered how many of them came here with a similar dream as mine.  

essentially, this city is filled with narcissists.  we come here from all over the world because we think we know more about film, tv, makeup, costume design, production design, directing, photography, than the people here.  or maybe we just know that we will die if we don't try to be one of those things.  i'm not saying we aren't here to learn, because we are.  we are so hungry to learn just imagine thousands of us holding up signs "will work for experience" if that was financially possible.  i don't know whose brilliant idea it was to make breaking into the business so impossible and based entirely on who you know, but i want to kick them in the groin.  breaking into this business often feels like stripping naked in front of a stranger and asking for a favor again and again and again.  

i'm in this enormous fish bowl where i am just a tiny little guppy fish and trying to survive among all these other fish fighting for the same food.  we're all hungry.  starving, really. starving for our chance to prove our worth, our talent, our contribution to this multi-billion dollar entertainment industry.  people from back home repeatedly ask me "how's LA?" i think i just told you.  its like that part in gilmore girls where rory is at the pulp fiction party in season five and logan asks how school is and she says "school's hard" in a tone that says "it's yale, logan. what other response were you expecting."  

so how's LA?  its hard.  its a big fish bowl.  its ivy league.  big leagues.  any other metaphors you want to use, insert here.  its frustrating.  tear out your hair frustrating.  when i'm not at work, i spend all my brain power on writing and reading scripts and thinking about what is a good idea for a show, what should i write for my pilot, what's funny, and 'oh no this idea is good but it feels like a drama, i don't want to write a drama,' 'i need to read this book about writing,'  'i need to do a lesson today of the shonda rhimes masterclass,' 'i need to contact my writing partner in my group for that class and talk to her about our spec,' 'i need to watch this show, ' 'i need to figure out a way to meet this person,' 'i need to go to this networking event.'  i feel like i have two full time jobs.  

its a very strange sensation to be working this hard and to be this frustrated with something that you love so much.  and to be so slap happy to be here in the place you love the most with the person you love the most trying to do the thing you love the most.  i wouldn't want to be doing anything else.  

thanks for letting me rant. 

awkward ending.  need to work on my act out.