Lot 48: August 2017

August 2, 2017

why ugly Betty is my favorite show

yesterday was heavy, so lets brighten it up.  i love this blog.  this is the only place where i am able to write and i don't have to think about character or plot or dialogue and i can't just write.  if i haven't written something by the end of the day i get a little crazy.  like a crack addict who doesn't get their fix.  i believe the term is jonesing?  this blog is my outlet to get my writing fix without banging my head against a wall and think thoughts such as "you have no talent!"  "you will never get hired as a writer!" "what story am i telling!?" "i don't know how to get this character from point A to B!"

i don't think anybody knows this about me, but ugly betty is my favorite tv show.   maybe not my favorite favorite (hi gilimore girls) but it is up there!

here's betty.
 the show is not particularly well written, it isn't a tv classic or a cult classic or anything, but i love it for so many reasons.

and if you haven't seen it this is my reaction.

and if you have seen it, then betty and i give you the thumbs up!

it has been a decade since it aired.  for those of you who don't know the premise: a latina girl who is on the "bigger side" (so stupid, betty you're beautiful! betty la bonita no betty la fea!) with glasses and braces gets a job mode, a fashion magazine, to the editor in chief.  she doesn't have an interest in fashion but wants to be a writer.

this is the editor in chief, daniel meade.  he's a goof and we all love him.

the creative director of the magazine and villain of the show, wilhelmenia slater.  the below entrance when she walks into mode is my favorite little bit of the entire series.  fierce. rawr. 

but she scary

what i love about this show and what made this show capture my heart are a few things and they are mostly all about betty,

1. she is so perky, kind, smart, positive, and brave.  i want to be her when i grow up.  i wouldn't have survived a day at mode, but she survives four years!

2. no matter how many blunders she does along the way, including embarassing moments, being too trusting, getting screwed over, getting constantly mocked, running into walls and people, she keeps moving forward.

3. her character growth is inspiring! look at her! you would have to see the show, but no matter how many times people tell her "you have to be cutthroat  to make it in this business!" she never listens or gives in and always takes the high road.  she is always a good person but as the show goes on, finds ways to change the people around her for the better.

4. marc and amanda.  marc is wilhelmenia's assistant and amanda is the receptionist.  they are terrible people.  amanda is so out of touch with reality.  they mock betty mercilessly but they end up becoming her closest friends.  because thats what happens when youre around betty.  you can't help but love her.  they are the funniest people in the show.  and i love them.

i still watch this show and i just keep watching it over and over and over again.  i bonded with my best friend amy over it, and if i didn't love this show, what would we have bonded over and become friends over? what, i say?  i have such fond memories from college of coming home after a long shift waitressing, putting in a batch of muffins, taking a shower and then eating a bowl of soup, some muffins and watching ugly betty.  it was my favorite way to unwind from the day.


August 1, 2017

hello, old friend.

i'm coming to you as i pull myself out of a hole i buried myself in consisting of exquisite tv, writing education and fear.  

as taran and i were driving to the orange county fair last weekend and were stuck on the freeway for two and a half hours, i looked at all the cars and wondered how many of them came here with a similar dream as mine.  

essentially, this city is filled with narcissists.  we come here from all over the world because we think we know more about film, tv, makeup, costume design, production design, directing, photography, than the people here.  or maybe we just know that we will die if we don't try to be one of those things.  i'm not saying we aren't here to learn, because we are.  we are so hungry to learn just imagine thousands of us holding up signs "will work for experience" if that was financially possible.  i don't know whose brilliant idea it was to make breaking into the business so impossible and based entirely on who you know, but i want to kick them in the groin.  breaking into this business often feels like stripping naked in front of a stranger and asking for a favor again and again and again.  

i'm in this enormous fish bowl where i am just a tiny little guppy fish and trying to survive among all these other fish fighting for the same food.  we're all hungry.  starving, really. starving for our chance to prove our worth, our talent, our contribution to this multi-billion dollar entertainment industry.  people from back home repeatedly ask me "how's LA?" i think i just told you.  its like that part in gilmore girls where rory is at the pulp fiction party in season five and logan asks how school is and she says "school's hard" in a tone that says "it's yale, logan. what other response were you expecting."  

so how's LA?  its hard.  its a big fish bowl.  its ivy league.  big leagues.  any other metaphors you want to use, insert here.  its frustrating.  tear out your hair frustrating.  when i'm not at work, i spend all my brain power on writing and reading scripts and thinking about what is a good idea for a show, what should i write for my pilot, what's funny, and 'oh no this idea is good but it feels like a drama, i don't want to write a drama,' 'i need to read this book about writing,'  'i need to do a lesson today of the shonda rhimes masterclass,' 'i need to contact my writing partner in my group for that class and talk to her about our spec,' 'i need to watch this show, ' 'i need to figure out a way to meet this person,' 'i need to go to this networking event.'  i feel like i have two full time jobs.  

its a very strange sensation to be working this hard and to be this frustrated with something that you love so much.  and to be so slap happy to be here in the place you love the most with the person you love the most trying to do the thing you love the most.  i wouldn't want to be doing anything else.  

thanks for letting me rant. 

awkward ending.  need to work on my act out.