Lot 48: some highs and lows

October 16, 2015

some highs and lows

TGIF.  and i mean that with gusto.  doing shows 5 nights a week and not seeing my sweet husband until 930 at night is really hard.  we are the annoying couple who can't get enough of each other and loves spending every single second of every day with one another.  so all this time apart is really new and strange and hard on us.  we don't like it.  i usually get 2 nights off a week, but we had a group of 60 request a private show, so next week, i only get sunday off, and the week after that is closing week, so i don't get a night off until we close on thursday.  which means we only get the next two sunday nights together and saturday days together until the end of the month.  it is so hard on us!! 
i wrote on monday how my show is stretching me immensely and how i wasn't having the most fun in the world.  i'm happy to report that i am having a lot more fun because i have forced myself to.  this is an opportunity, a sweet experience, a fun experience, and i want to make the most of it.  i don't want to look back on it and regret being crabby and not giving it my all.  i have gotten a lot more comfortable being so close to the audience and i feel i have fallen into a nice rhythm.  i want to live in the moment.  
yesterday i went the a pumpkin patch with my nieces and nephews.  i had never been to a pumpkin patch before, it was so much fun!! my niece showed up in little heels, the silly girl!! 





isaac is so stubborn.  he is about 15 months and refuses to walk while his 11 month old cousin has been walking since she was about 9 months old.  isaac got sooo  dirty crawling all over the ground at the pumpkin patch and the poor guy face planted as he was crawling around the cart and tipped it over.  

eli, my 5 year old nephew, the one behind the wheel, was so scared his brother next to him, oliver (3 yrs) was going to start the tractor!! we tried to tell him it wasn't a working tractor, but he was so scared he got down.

june bug.  walking since she was 9 months old.  how gorgeous is she?

posing with the scarecrows.


i often forget that my blog has grown substantially and that i have to be careful about what i write about those closest to me and protect those i love's privacy.  so without giving away too many personal details about this situation, my parents have been looking forward to a guided 20 day trip to the Holy Land that is scheduled to leave at the end of the month.  my dad had his knee replaced last october in preparation for the trip.  they have been studying middle eastern culture, intense bible study, and have been doing everything they could do to prepare for this bucket list trip they have been wanting to take their entire lives. a while back, my dad realized his other knee was giving him problems and to make a long story short and to not wave all his private health problems flying, he now has to get his other knee replaced and cancel the trip.  i feel horrible for my dad.  getting your knee replaced is major surgery and scary and results in major repercussions.  my heart aches for him and my mom as they are both so disappointed about their trip.  

but yesterday morning i woke up to the news and read about the Israeli security forces setting up checkpoints and concrete barriers outside Palestinian neighborhoods and the controversy and uproar regarding the Palestinisn president pulling out that certain peace framework from the 90s, it made me kind of glad they aren't going as the situation over there is dicey and not safe.

i had told my dad the day before the God knows all and has a plan for all of us and as my dad wondered why this was happening to his knee now of all times, i told him that i thought something terrible was going to happen in the middle east the same time he was going to be there, and that the Lord was looking out for him.  it is looking like i might have been onto something.  i'm now glad they aren't going. but please keep my dad in your prayers. 

fifth.  speaking of living in the now and acknowledging that the Lord has a plan for all of us, that doesn't mean that it is easy to sit back, take a deep breath and know that your life will work out.  i don't know what i want to do with my life.  i don't know what career i want.  and it is frustrating to the 10th degree.  it keeps me up at night, it makes me angry, it makes me sad, it makes me feel unfulfilled.  but the only way to know what i want to do and find my way is through life experience.  i volunteer at so many different organizations and research different fields and think and ponder and i know that one day, i will find my way and find my path.  i'm so grateful for the places i volunteer and the places that help me get that life experience.  they keep me busy, they give me a little bit of meaning, and they give me hope.  and it's comforting to know that i am not the only one in the world who doesn't know what she wants to do with her life.  there are a million people in the world who are in the same boat as me.  we'll figure it out.  

it's just hard to be patient in the meantime.

have a fun weekend friends!! tomorrow, we are going to a witch fest with the in laws! sure the be oodles of fun! 

linking up with belindatif, and karli

  
Bright on a Budget

2 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry about your dad's knee and your parents' trip, but you're probably right. It is probably not just a coincidence, but the Lord's way of protecting them.

    A few years ago, my friend and I were planning on taking a trip to Nepal. Something happened and we ended up deciding to go to New York to see some other friends instead and neither of us could afford to pay for both trips, so we decided to put off Nepal. It bugged me for awhile. And then, the day after we would have arrived, mass riots broke out in the capital. It would have been a HORRIBLE and very scary situation. To this day, I have always been so grateful that we ended up not making that trip.

    Huh. That actually reminds me of my near miss with Hurricane Katrina too.

    Funny how things work out...

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  2. Stopping by from the H54F linkup :) so sorry to hear about your dad's knee! My grandma had one replaced several years ago and is now having to have the second one replaced. My hubby's grandpa is having his knee re-replaced due to infection (not the doctor's fault!) in about a week! They are rough surgeries with rough recoveries, but God takes care of His children. It's crazy how things work out!

    Mariah
    www.faithandfashionblog.blogspot.com

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