i need to be real with you. i have written a lot of posts and posted a lot of things on instagram that are positive and inspirational and uplifting and to you, it may seem like i am keeping my head up and doing fine, but that isn't entirely true.
it's been hard. really, really hard. at times, it has felt impossible. i stand by and believe every one of those posts that i wrote and every instagram post i published about having hope and keeping my head up. i believe all of it, but there have been many, many moments during the past month that i have been at the bottom of a hole trying to climb out.
it's been a month now and it has definitely gotten easier with time and about a week ago i decided to do something everyday that would make my soul happy, and that has definitely helped, but i am no belinda. although i really wish i was as positive as her.
everything is a choice. i can choose to not get out of bed in the morning, because, really, why get up, or i can put a smile on my face and do something worthwhile. i have learned how to be an excellent housewife.
a few weeks ago, i finally caved and watched the pilot of this show that has been advertised non stop everywhere, especially on netflix. you can't even turn netflix on without the theme song blaring. so i said "enough! enough! you win netflix! will you shut up about it if i watch it?!" so i watched it and it has now shut up about it.
and i was immediately hooked.
kimmy is the most cheerful, upbeat, unbreakable non person i have ever not met. weird sentence. she is now one of my favorite tv characters. kimmy has been through so much. 15 years of living in a bunker captured by a "reverend" until they found her and her other captives. there are a lot of flashbacks throughout the show to her time in the bunker where she could have broken down, fallen apart, and given into the insanity of living in a bunker for 15 years. but she didn't.
i promise i'm not giving anything away really when i say that there is a flashback to her in the bunker when the reverend is saying that the whole world died in an apocalypse or something and that everything in the world in dead except for her. she says "then why is it that when i cleaned the air vents the other day i found this rat!" and the reverend says "damn you kimmy! i''ll find a way to break you!" her response?
"no you won't."
i know that it may sound stupid that i have found such enormous inspiration and comfort from this show, but it really has given me such comfort. you can't break kimmy. she will keep smiling, keep her head up, keep fighting, keep going. and i want to be like that. so since watching, i have tried to be like that. in the moments when i thought i would break, i remember a clip from the show and find a way to hold it together.
keep smiling. keep holding on. keep fighting. keep believing. keep hoping.
and i can't believe i am just now mentioning the show is created and executive produced by tina fey and has jenna from 30 rock on it as well as defwan from those extraordinarily awesome "queen of jordan" 30 rock episodes. i really wish that was a real reality show. but everyone in it is fabulous, except the landlady and it is sooooo funny because, duh, it's tina fey and it has tina fey written alllllll over it. it's like 30 rock born again. well technically it is created by tina fey and robert carlock, who wrote and produced for friends and 30 rock so what are you even doing reading this post go to netflix now and watch it right now what are you even doing.
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introducing kelly from kelly's kinda crazy!! i love this girl! i love how fun her blog is and love keeping up with her life and especially her book reviews!! be sure to check out her about page, this girl has so many friends i am so jealous!! i kind of want her life....
Tell us a little bit about what we will find on your blog. I blog about life, country music and books. I have an amazing group of friends and we seem to find ourselves having all kinds of blog-worthy adventures.
If you could have dinner with anyone in the world, dead or alive, who would it be? I would have to be a dinner party. I really tried but I couldn't choose just one. Miranda Lambert, Blake Shelton, Brantley Gilbert and Jennifer Lawrence. They are all amazing in their own way and I'm pretty sure it would be one big party.
Describe your perfect Saturday. Sleeping in, lunch with one or all of my girls, maybe a movie and some shopping followed by a country music concert.
If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would it be? Or, what is your favorite place you have traveled to? Anywhere in the world would be Italy. I've always wanted to go there. Anywhere in the US would be Nashville. I'm going next year with a friend for the CMAs and I'm really excited.
If you could give advice to your younger self, what would it be? Always love yourself. There are going to be times in life when you feel like the whole world is trying to pull you down. Let yourself have a bad day but then pick up the pieces and keep going.You can't give up on yourself or your dreams.
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