this post is about to get real very fast. you all know i lost my job the day i got back from my san fransisco trip and things have been very, very hard. my husband's hours at his work were sliced in half a few weeks before i lost my job, so this hit really hit us big time. some days i wake up and i'm okay. some days i wake up and i feel like i'm drowning and there is a knot in my stomach and it won't go away until the afternoon. i am always terrified of waking up, and delay going to sleep. i've been having terrible nightmares, and you know you life isn't the best when you have a dream you lost your job and you wake up and realize it wasn't a dream; it's real.
this past weekend i was looking at the rebox app on my phone when i saw this movie and watched the trailer. i am so glad i did. this movie completely changed my perspective on how blessed i am, how lucky i am, how amazing my life is, and made me stop my pity party.
the film is about a family from sudan who lose their parents and several other loved ones from their village during the civil war. they walk hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of miles to get to a refugee camp, where they spend 13 years waiting for the lucky chance to get sent to America. 13 years. one blessed day, they get sent to America, but their sister gets separated from them as the boys get sent to kansas city and the girl gets sent to boston. the film is about them adapting to American life and reese is with the company that sponsored them to bring them to America. her job is to get them jobs, but gets more involved than that because #characterdevelopment and #whatkindofmoviewoulditbeifthatdidn'thappen
one of my good friends from college went to kenya for 3 weeks a few summers ago to work at an orphanage. she is one of the most well read, world news aware, live in a tent in the middle of nowhere to help people i have ever met. she is a very special person. we lost touch for a while but when i got married we had lunch to catch up. hearing about the horrors she saw in kenya made me sick to my stomach. i couldn't imagine what she saw and what she had to endure while she was there. this movie helped me just a tiny tiny bit to understand better.
these people are warriors. they are good, kind, respectful, honest people. when they get to America, they don't know what a phone is. they are amazed when they get settled at their apartment and they turn on the water in the sink. they had been getting water from inside of trees. one of them had scars on his arm from fighting off a freaking lion. they lived in huts. one of them on the flight to America didn't know what butter was so she just ate it straight.
i am so embarrassed that i have been upset and been having a hard time because i lost my job. i am so incredibly blessed. our apartment, oh our apartment is so cozy, it's warm, our bed is like laying on heaven (thanks mom and dad), i have blankets and food and shoes and a family who wasn't shot by soldiers in the civil war. i didn't have to walk hundreds of miles to get to safety. i have a car, the nicest car i've ever had, its warm and it works and its sleek and i love it. i have all my sisters who are 20 miles away and my parents who are 300 miles away. i have a computer, heat, warm socks, a washer and dryer in my apartment. i can't believe how blessed i am. since applying for jobs i have gotten several interviews. i have my God, my Lord, the One whom i can always trust, call upon, and comfort me. i have my amazing, wonderful saint of a husband whom i love more than anything else on earth.
shame on me for having a pity party and allowing the moment i lost my job to keep rolling in my head and letting it upset me. i am blessed. i am loved. i have a huge group of supporters. i have never fought off a lion. i'm so proud to be an American. i am so blessed and humbled to have everything i have. the movie was so spiritual for me i felt like i was at church. reese has a surprisingly small role in it as it is mostly about the refugees.
if you need to be slapped back into reality, watch this movie. it will absolutely make you humble and feel immeasurably blessed.
so tonight say an extra prayer to God and thank Him for all you have. look around and see every bit of blessings you have. because i am sure you have oh so many.