Lot 48: i am smart

February 19, 2015

i am smart

Lot 48

most of you may know that i got let go on tuesday. it has been so hard. yesterday, i woke up and realized i had nowhere to go, nowhere to be.  i felt so stupid and useless.  given the way i was let go, it left me feeling incredibly stupid.  it was as if every single thing i thought about myself wasn't true.  yesterday was the hardest, i hope today is better.

but i have a choice.  i have a choice to choose to not agree with what my former boss said.  it just wasn't the right fit and there are no hard feelings, it just wasn't the right fit.  i look forward to my future.  i look forward to what is in store for me next.  i want to go in a different direction.  i am smart.  despite what was told or the way i interpreted it, i am smart.  i am smart.  i am a good writer.  i am a hard worker.

my word for this year is "fearless."  that is what i need to be right now.  fearless.  fearless of being unemployed and making ends meet.  i have faith.  the Lord will ALWAYS  take care of you.  your life is in His hands.  i'm not scared of not finding a new job, i know i will.  i have faith.

on my trip to san fransisco and on our anniversary weekend, i LOVED  how i didn't think about what i was eating, didn't obsess over how i looked, i actually felt pretty.  and that was huge for me.  i am still consistently working out and when i get really upset i tend to not eat, so i am sure i will continue to lose weight.  but that doesn't matter.  like i have said, i will always find something wrong about me.  whether it is my level of intelligence or my appearance.  you can always find something wrong with you.  it is your choice whether or not to let it get to you.  it is your choice, that is the beauty of it.  you don't have to be stuck in a mind where you can only think bad things about yourself.

continue to do what i said last time, look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself you love you.  write down things that you love about yourself.  each and every single one of you are worthwhile.  don't ever think you aren't.  you are beautiful.  you are smart. believe in yourself.

i can't wait to read all your posts! that is my favorite part of this linkup! the next linkup will be march 5.  mark your calendars and linkup below!! xoxo {i have been doing that a lot lately.  what am i, gossip girl? }

11 comments:

  1. oh no! Being let go is hard no matter the circumstances, but something like your situation just makes it even more difficult. But you are being as positive as you can and I truly admire you for that. In the end, you just have to know that something better will come along and that this experience will make you wiser and smarter than you already are. In the end, you will look back and know that what happened was for a reason and eventually you will know what that reason is..even if you don't right now! Hang in there, girl!!

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  2. Oh I just feel for you!! But it sounds like you are on the right track and I'm sure you will find something amazing. This how things work sometimes don't they? I had a similar situation before and my next job absolutely changed my life! I so want to join in on the linkup so I am marking my calendar so I won't run out of time! Keep your head up!!

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  3. I'm so sorry that your dealing with these insecurities. I was let go from my very first job (and will never eat at Quizznos again). After that I felt so insecure and always nervous about losing my future jobs. It took a long time to realize that sometimes it's not the right fit and sometimes it's a sign to move on and tackle the next adventure. It sounds like you have a fantastic attitude and your next employer will be very, very lucky to have you!

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  4. you ARE smart! I'm very sorry that you got let go, but you are really an amazing person my dear. I have all the faith in the world that you will find something much better! I'm always here if you need to chat! xoxo (I'll be gossip girl w/ you because I've been doing that a lot too!)

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  5. The choice is absolutely ours! Loving this reminder. Even if the next couple of days are difficult - remember it, and be fearless!

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  6. I'm so sorry to hear this, but so happy to hear this is the attitude you're having about everything!

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  7. I'm sorry you were let go. You should definitely file for unemployment. Given the situation I think you would most likely win. Is Utah an "at-will" employment state? Kentucky is.

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  8. I'm so sorry that your boss didn't value your contributions or help you make steps to improve, if that was needed. But I think this is the exact right attitude and if you maintain this line of thinking, you'll find the right opportunity in no time!

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  9. You are smart. You are beautiful. You are important. That's it, it's that simple. Don't forget this:)

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  10. You are certainly beautiful and smart! When life hands you a difficult situation it can be tough to see the beauty in yourself but that doesn't make it any less real. I'm so happy you are staying so positive (:

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  11. You know you are smart. You were put in a bad situation with someone treating you like that. No one deserves to be talked to that way. Life brings us challenges, but you will make it past this one. Love you friend!

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Hearing from you makes my day!!