Lot 48: let's get this off my chest

October 1, 2014

let's get this off my chest

the below picture IS NOT MY ANNOUNCEMENT

it's wednesday!! and you know that means it's confession time!! but today, i am not racking my brain to come up with something to tell you.  i feel the need to get these things off my chest. 

i confess that i knew my sister was pregnant before she told me.  look how cute her pregnancy announcement is!! you see, i have three sisters, all older, and there are always at least two sisters pregnant at the same time.  rachelle and andrea were pregnant at the same time, but then andrea had isaac, leaving only one sister pregnant.  jessica's (my oldest sister) youngest had just turned one, and i knew she liked  to have her kids close together.  so i thought "hmmm... only one sister is pregnant.  this isn't like us.  jessica is going to get pregnant any day."  she told us all at family dinner one week later and after the squealing and kissing and hugging had subsided, i said I KNEW IT!!! so now, rachelle is 35 weeks pregnant with her second child and second daughter and jessica is 12 weeks pregnant and won't be finding out the sex of her baby as she already has a boy and a girl.  which makes me disappointed.  i don't want to wait until april to know if i have a little nephew or niece!! 

i confess that i am having a really, really hard time getting through this book.  i feel like i have to read this book because jk. rowling wrote it, but i am having such a hard time getting through it.  it is slow.  i have had to renew the book at the library like, 5 times.  literally, 5 times.  i am on page 160 of a 450 page book and i don't want to finish it.  i don't want to read it.  i would rather read another book my new favorite author, liane moriarty because i also checked out what alice forgot and i just want to read that.  but i feel like i have to read it! but i don't want to!! i want to ditch it.  but you, know, i have a habit of ditching books and i am trying to break it! but guys! i don't want to read it! i'm so torn! 

i got laid off last night.  my position was dissolved while i was away on disability leave.  so there was no more use for me.  they had already packed up my desk, gave me a week severance pay and said my disability leave will end when it was originally going to end.  i am sifting through all my emotions, but there are a lot of them.  i LOVED my job and am absolutely hearthbroken to a million pieces that i don't get to work there any more.  i am very, very extremely angry and sad.  and scared because we can't live off taran's income.  i don't know what we are going to do.  so i guess the two things i am feeling the most are heart broken and mad.  please send me your prayers. i honestly don't know how i am going to get through this.  my world has been turned upside down.  but i have already applied for two jobs and unemployment today and contacted everyone in my business that i know. i thought i would work at that company for years and years.  i thought i was done applying for jobs and that i would be there until i had kids.  and now it is taken away from me.  and i don't know which way is up.

TODAY IS OCTOBER FIRST.  do you know what that means?? FALL IS OFFICIALLY HERE!!! my favorite season is here and i am so freaking happy about it!! i try to soak up every day of october and revel in the beauty of fall, but every year, it seems to go by waaaay too fast. so i am DEDICATED to soaking up every. single. day of october.  and this year, i will hold onto it too tightly and cry when i have to let it go.  because it's OCTOBER.  and what is better than october?  it makes me really mad though that i got laid off right as my favorite month started.  BUT I WILL NOT LET IT RUIN MY MONTH.  

tell me.  what things do you need to get off your chest?

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  1. I'm sorry to hear you were laid off Lauren, I can't imagine how difficult and scary that must be. You are in my thoughts and prayers, I know there is a new wonderful opportunity out there for you! And I say if you hate the book still at this point...ditch it!

  2. oh no, I am so sorry about your job. I hope everything gets sorted out soon!!
    And I have heard that book sucks! So ditch it, I say, ditch it.

  3. OH, what a fun cute announcement!

    And that stinks about your job, doll. I'll keep you in my prayers!

  4. Sorry to hear about your layoff....such stress. I'm hoping things start looking up for you soon. As for the book, tons of people at my library have said the exact same thing you have. When I come across books like that I stop reading. There's so many great books out there to keep going with a bad one!

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  6. Lauren I am so so sorry to hear about your job. I will be praying an awesome opportunity comes your way soon. And I will also work on my spelling so I don't always have to delete comments ;)

  7. I'm so sorry about your job. Definitely sending prayers your way, always. I'm glad you're planning to enjoy October. It's a beautiful month!

  8. i'm sorry about your layoff; that sucks so much ballsack. hope you land on your feet soon.

    as for ditching books, i've done that so many times. i'll always try to come back to them but sometimes it takes years!

    thanks for linking up!

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  9. I'm SO sorry to hear about your job sweetie. i know it sucks. I'll be praying for you and thinking about you. I know it's hard, but just remember there's obviously something bigger and better for you out there. <3 hugs hun

  10. Is it even legal for them to dissolve your position while you're on disability leave?!?!

  11. Oh, no. So sorry to hear about your job? Try not to worry about it and just focus on getting healthy. Congratulations on be becoming an aunt again!!!

    ~Ashley @ A Cute Angle

  12. CONGRATS...to your sister, haha. You almost faked us out ;)


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