Lot 48: Boredom is a bad word

July 22, 2012

Boredom is a bad word

I hate this word.  I don't like to speak of it.  I don't like to hear of it.  And mostly, I hate to admit that I get (bleeep) sometimes.  Don't we all though?  I think most of us do.
As excited as I am to be done with school in two weeks, I am a little nervous about what I will do with my spare time.  I don't want to struggle with the adjustment from school to work life.  I don't want to dread going home at the end of a work day because I am afraid what I will do with myself.  I really don't want that to happen.  So here is what I think.
You can always beat boredom.  All you do is have to choose to fight it.  There is always something exciting to do.  You can read a new book, or build a fort, or write a story, or draw a picture, or paint your toenails, or write a blog post, or go to the park and read a book for a change of scenery, the list goes on and on.  When I get bored, I clean, groom myself, write something, learn, make something.  There is always more to learn in my field.  I can always find something new to learn about web development or design.
Or you can take up a new hobby!  I think I would like to crochet.  I would like to make cute little things for my niecephews and see them snuggle with a blanket that I made as they grow up.
Boredom can always be beaten.  The good thing about me is that I am a writer, and therefore will never be bored because I can always write!  And I should be writing!  Sometimes it is hard to think of stories to write, but I don't believe in writer's block so I just force myself to think of something.  It always works.  I also have a list of ideas on my phone for stories that come to me randomly.  There are a lot of stories and scripts and TV shows that I want to write, and I am sure the list will never end as I will think of more and more things to write about!
Whenever I get nervous about free time when school ends, I just tell myself, the world is now my oyster. I will be able to do whatever I want.  I won't constantly be thinking about homework or grades or frustration with things I don't understand. I won't have this annoying cloud hanging above my head that says "Bachelor's Degree" on it.  In two weeks, I am going to take a big needle and pop that cloud and all the papers and assignments I have down in the past four and a half years will rain down and then the cloud will float away.  It will be so nice.
Something else I hate and never speak of is loneliness.  I always look at people in TV shows, like on "Friends" or "Seinfeld" and I think "are you people never by yourselves?"  It is hard to only have the company of yourself.  I am sure you all feel that way, even though some of you are lucky enough to have mastered that skill of being okay with being alone.   I just am really grateful for my roommates.  We hang out together a lot and I am really grateful for their company and how fun they are and their ability to make me laugh.  I love my roommates.
We should never expect to have glistening social lives in a way that our phone never stops ringing and our days and nights are filled with a variety of friends, who we go out and do fantastically fun and cheap things where we share many laughs and stories while wearing perfectly in fashion outfits with our hair done so perfectly that we don't even have any flyaways.  It is okay to not have plans.  It is okay to not have your phone ring for a week.  It is okay to wish you did have plans.  It is okay to RedBox three nights in a row.  Just don't feel bad about yourself or sorry for yourself for it.  You always have the ability to change your attitude.  I do think that we should all try to be social and go out and meet people and call people, but we don't need to do that every single day.  And we don't need to feel bad about not doing that every single day. If you want to be out on the town but aren't because all your friends are busy, go out by yourself!  It's okay! It's better than being home when you don't want to be!
The moral of the story is, don't feel sorry for yourself because you don't have plans.  Don't feel bad about yourself because your phone doesn't ring.  Don't feel like a failure if you aren't busy constantly.  You can't always change your situation, but you can always change your attitude.

1 comment:

Hearing from you makes my day!!